Things I Wish I Could Tell You
Hey there! My name is Whitney, and I am a lot of things: an avid reader, a human living with Crohn’s Disease, an actor, and a baker. I love cooking, playing games of all kinds, mixology, traveling, learning new languages, singing, dancing, and catching up on stuff on both the big and small screens. And I can do all of these things alone, but I enjoy doing them with folks I enjoy spending time with by throwing a ridiculous random party more. Simply put, I am a jack of all trades, master of none. And honestly, that’s probably what this “blog” will be, if you can even call it that. A smattering of my two cents on all the things that make me… me! Or something like that. I plan to have entries labeled in sections so that if you don’t want to subscribe, but still are interested in what I have to say, you can visit at your leisure and read the things you want and not have to be bothered with the things you don’t – or if you wanna read it all, I sure ain’t gonna stop ya.
As a Scorpio, I often get the “Whitney, I can’t figure you out, you’re so mysterious” comment. And while I sometimes am amused by the intrigue of wanting to figure me out, I also recognize that makes it hard to get to know me because I am quite the introvert until I trust you. SO, with that being said, this is my way of opening up and seeing how it goes. Maybe as a result, next time you see me in person, you can use it as a good ice breaker. “Hey! I read your post about how much you can’t stand Taylor Swift. Me either! Wanna grab a drink and chat about it?” I’ll probably say no, but at least now you know something about me and maybe that can open the door to chat about other things, and then by the end of our conversation, we’ll already be two or three drinks in and have ended the conversation full circle about how Taylor Swift is annoying and her music is the same and there is nothing appealing to me about a thirty-something-year-old still giving off the image of a sixteen-year-old-girl, but to each their own and hey now we are friends!
Look, I don’t trust people easily, that’s really the gist of it, but I’m working on it, because honestly, I love community. I love meeting new people and hearing their stories. I am just really bad at small talk so ice breakers are not my thing. Remember above how I said I’m a Scorpio? Yeah, we’re also known for being intense. I may have a short response if you ask me how I am doing, but I can talk for hours about dating after thirty, or family memories that make us smile, religious views, books we’re obsessed with, what we love about making art and what we hate about making art, why our partners drive us crazy, but why we love them more. You know, the deep shit. The shit that connects us. That’s the shit I’m interested in. What lights you up. What pisses you the fuck off. A story about your best friend from middle school and how you wish you never lost touch. I’m tired of seeing someone before the doors open at a theatre and catching up is limited to “How are you? Are you in a show right now?” Instead, I wish it was “What is something good that happened to you today? What are you looking forward to? What are you struggling with if anything right now?” but I also know that’s not realistic when you run into someone at Front Bar ten minutes before a 7pm curtain. So, here’s a smattering of things I want to tell you, but am too afraid to because I’m still insecure about how deep I can go in a single conversation when you are secretly wishing we just stayed with the small talk.
Jokes aside, I hope you enjoy my endeavor to work on being more articulate and friendly and a little less mysterious.